Passage of Time

Kind of sad, time sure passes by fast. I cleaned my son's room today. And packaged up all the baby toys for the garage sale or giveaway. He will be three in a couple of months. The passage of time that fast kind of makes me sad. I know I have in no way been able to enjoy it the way most parents can. I just plain hurt to much and am unable to do with the kids what other parents can do. I often wonder as the kids get older and older if they will resent the fact that I had them even though I was less than perfect physically. How much will they come to hate me due to the pain I endure and the things I am unable to do. I wonder.