Oscarisms

I can go for days with nothing planned then a day like today. Both kids had dentist appts and cleanings.  Austin was in trouble at school. So I got scolded in front of entire fifth grade class, the dentist scolded me for their poor brushing habits. :( Then took my mom to her genetic counseling appt for long qt. then had to get my blood tested since I was at hospital anyway.  Then find out A& A almost killed each other while mom and I gone.  Both bruised, both drew blood. Then spent hours doing one page of grade 5 homework.  Work he knew but refused to do.   Just arrrggg my mathematical capabilities are almost non existent.  I don't know my times table and can't remember it. Ive Explained long qt to mom for the hundredth time then she tells the genetic counsellor that she doesn't know anything. So the explanation goes on and on. Telehealth works great. Then at the end after telehealth ended I'm explaining the degrees of who could be infected if she is positive.

My one little word for 2014. Energy. The less I do the less I feel like doing.  Need to change that. Positive energy.  Need more of that. Stamina need to rebuild this, I really do.

Memory is a very basic function right.  One of the first things a baby does is remember Mom, Dad.  Simple, easy right? Until something comes along and messes it up. Age, trauma, lack of oxygen. Having three sudden cardiac arrests definitely played foul with my memory.  Then adding insult to injury I had a collapse from a near fatal blood infection.   Sometimes I think that did more damage than the cardiac arrests did. Three weeks after having the cardiac arrests I came home.  I could remember Hawaii, but I didn't know what a pizza was. Ten days after that I had the collapse. Then I didn't remember Hawaii either. But the iPad I hadn't remembered previously I did remember. Waking up and not knowing what year it was was weird.  Let me restate that.  Waking up thinking it was September 2009 and not July 2012 was weird.  I had a 6 & 9 year old.  Not a 9&12 year old. I was a happily employed accountant in a job I loved.   Not a fired ex-employee from a corporate buy-

A new year.  Full of promise.  What will the next 365 days bring? More of the old? Or some new? One guaranteed thing is that the time will pass.  Meet it head one and get it before it gets you. For that one needs energy. Energy is a many faceted word. Verb, noun, descriptive.   I think energy covers it all. Positive energy in which to live, full of energy to live.  Mental, physical.  Energy about summit up.