One of those days:

I am having one of those days (weeks) where I feel so alone and isolated. I wonder why I do not have friends. I wonder why people do not like me once they meet me. I wonder why people do not value me. I wonder what is wrong with me. I wonder why. I really wonder why. I try to be a friend, I am non-judgemental, I allow others their own opinions, I offer advice, and support, I am there is someone wants a shoulder to cry on. Someone tells me something in confidence it stays in confidence. So I wonder why? I am the one that picks up the phone and calls, I am the one that reaches out. So I wonder why? What is it about me that is non-valued by other? What is it about me that makes me less than others? What is it about me? I wonder why? I try to be part of the group, but it seems I am on the outside looking in. So I wonder why?
And then there is that part of me that thinks why does it matter? I am not even sure I can define why it matters, I just know that to my heart and mind it does matter.
As I said just one of those day.