What to do when you are breaking?
What does a person do when they are breaking? When there is nothing to look forward to? When there is nothing but pain? When there is nothing but anguish? When there is nothing but a deep black hole of nothingness?
There truly isn't an explanation or understanding of depression until you are there. Every single time you've hit rock bottom and think you can't possibly go down any further and yet something happens to go even deeper.
I was recently asked by something what I did with my time. I had to think about it. What time? The time I don't have because I put out one fire after another? The time that's spent just surviving rather than living?
Speaking with some people recently about the subject of suicide. It's not like I'd ever deliberately kill myself, it's a matter of just not wanting to live. Not live like this. Why did I fight so hard to live? Why was I so stubborn? Would it have been better to just fade away?
There truly isn't an explanation or understanding of depression until you are there. Every single time you've hit rock bottom and think you can't possibly go down any further and yet something happens to go even deeper.
I was recently asked by something what I did with my time. I had to think about it. What time? The time I don't have because I put out one fire after another? The time that's spent just surviving rather than living?
Speaking with some people recently about the subject of suicide. It's not like I'd ever deliberately kill myself, it's a matter of just not wanting to live. Not live like this. Why did I fight so hard to live? Why was I so stubborn? Would it have been better to just fade away?
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