Oops did it again
A little over a week ago my kids and I participated in a Friday night "amazing race" community event. Many different mini-events. Not intense but repetitive. It was fun we all enjoyed it. But the next day I hurt in places I didn't remember could hurt.
Roll forward to Wednesday and my son learns to ride a two wheeled bike. Huge accomplishment. It's taken six years. Huge accomplishment. Saturday I go to ride with him and falter getting started. The pedal rakes the entire side of my leg and lodges behind my knee. I fall forward onto the crossbar. I hurt places that shouldn't be hurt. The handle bars jab me in the side getting me on my S-ICD. I saw stars. I came down hard and weird on my ankle trying not to fall.
I hurt, am bruised and am limping.
When will I learn I'm not his age? I remember always resenting my mom as a kid when I was always told by her she was too old to do anything with me. I was five years older when I had my son. I don't want to tell him I'm too old, and especially don't want to tell him I'm too ill.
When and how do I get my stamina back? Is it the betas? Is it the SCAs from two years ago? The long forced hospitalization? I want to enjoy my kids lives, not sit on the sidelines. How do I do that?
Roll forward to Wednesday and my son learns to ride a two wheeled bike. Huge accomplishment. It's taken six years. Huge accomplishment. Saturday I go to ride with him and falter getting started. The pedal rakes the entire side of my leg and lodges behind my knee. I fall forward onto the crossbar. I hurt places that shouldn't be hurt. The handle bars jab me in the side getting me on my S-ICD. I saw stars. I came down hard and weird on my ankle trying not to fall.
I hurt, am bruised and am limping.
When will I learn I'm not his age? I remember always resenting my mom as a kid when I was always told by her she was too old to do anything with me. I was five years older when I had my son. I don't want to tell him I'm too old, and especially don't want to tell him I'm too ill.
When and how do I get my stamina back? Is it the betas? Is it the SCAs from two years ago? The long forced hospitalization? I want to enjoy my kids lives, not sit on the sidelines. How do I do that?
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