Oscarisms

Yes I know it has been awhile, I just did not feel like being here. I am kind of in shock, and very very tired, and just overwhelmed in life right now. I found this on lesfitz blog and thought it might put a smile on my face Thirteen things that make me smile..... 1) My children 2) My hubby 3) Hearing I love you 4) Peace and quiet 5) Finishing a scrap book page 6) A few margaritas or just plain tequila 7) Nature's beauty 8) Large white fluffy snowflakes falling down 9) Hearing my daughter read to me 10) Having my son eat 11) A walk in solitude 12) The rainbow after the rain 13) Being Alive

Once a year a woman is supposed to go to the doctor and get a PAP smear done, and a man is supposed to go and get his prostate checked. Both equally distasteful but necessary. If you book your appointment for around your birthday you should not forget. Well today was my day. There is nothing like being naked on a doctors bed only having that fake little paper cover and having the power go off. YUP pick me, it happened. Not so fun. Anyway she did what she did, and discussed my concerns and I already have a referral and appointment set up with a OBGYN for the 1st of February. Now that is scary. You know it is urgent if you can get in that fast. So some more sleepless nights and more stress, but at least the first is only a week away. Have a good weekend.

Just what is optimism? "It is a victory dance. Pure excitement." as per my daughter. Gotta love how a little one thinks. I am so proud of her.

My friend Jenni came to Alberta from Australia to meet me in September 2006. She recently did a LO about me, and it brought me to tears. I wanted to share. Hidden Journaling: I did this LO for my beautiful friend Oscar who shared so much of herself with me when we stayed with her. Oscar and I shared an empathy right from the very start, long before we met a special bond was formed. We had both been in horrific vehicle accidents and suffer Chonic Pain, a pain that is both physical and emotional, that saps the energy from our body and constantly threatens to invade our very soul. A pain that only loved ones and closest friends see, a pain that the ones we love most try hard to ignore because it frightens them, leaves them feeling helpless. We endeavour to hide it from them which takes enormous will power, enormous strength and sometimes engenders feelings of irritability on both sides at the very existence of it. Chronic pain means different medications means different side effects mea...

I was a young kid yet at 21 and DH was 30. And in all of my maturity I made the agreement with him 19 years ago today that we would date exclusively. That meant I could no longer date anyone else and he would no longer date anyone else. Who knew that 19 years later we would still be together and committed to each other. We have seen numerous friends in that same time period get married, get divorced, get married, and get divorced. And here we are having gone through some really terrible times still hanging on. Who would have thought? Daughter has had a rough time with bullying at school since it started in September. I have talked to her teacher a few times. I have talked to daughter about what to do when it happens. The school has a anti-bullying policy. In fact people were in talking about it last week. But I had a little girl in tears three times last week. Twice because of name calling and once Friday because of pysical violence. To the point that she did not want to go to a classm...

As my little guy put it this morning, I am not ready for today Mommy. I kind of felt that way too. I went to aquacize on Saturday for the first time in over two years. IT was heavenly to be weightless in the water. I enjoy it so much. We got hit by about 6 inches of snow in less than two hours Satruday morning. Good thing it did not snow longer than that. It was so pretty. Great big huge flakes and all white everywhere. My romantic weekend did not turn out as I expected. I watched the movie by myself, I ate supper by myself, and I went to bed alone. Not quite what I expected. I did do one LO for the Survivor contest over at scrapbookchalet. It was to be on our town, so I did it on the things that people always ask if they come for a visit. The WHAT IS THAT? questions.

totally happy it is friday. My mom is taking the kids for part of tomorrow and saturday night. That means hubby and I get a little alone time. I so need it. Hopefully we can hit a movie, have supper out, and then have some nice x-rated adult time together. Afterall on the 23rd we have been together for 19 years.

The LO that I did for the scrapbookchalet survivor contest, well it was based off a sketch at http://www.pencillines.com/ , sketch # 10. Well they have gone and put the LO in the readers gallery. This is awesome for me. http://scrappingangelsuk.typepad.com/photos/readers_gallery_sketch_10/sk10_sherri_scrapbookchalet.html

Pop Pop Pop Music found this on Lesfitz blog and thought how I must know what my list was! Go to popculturemadness.com and find your's by clicking the pop music box and then the link to the year you were 18 on the side bar to get your list of 75!!! Icommented on some of my faves....The hit's from 1985 just for you! 1985's Greatest Hits 1.We Built This City - Jefferson Starship (still totally know the words to this by heart) 2.Smooth Operator - Sade 3.The Boys of Summer - Don Henley (hot) 4.Summer of '69 - Bryan Adams (even more hot) 5.Walking On Sunshine - Katrina and the Waves (remember it) 6.Glory Days - Bruce Springsteen (hot) 7.Axel F - Harold Faltermeyer 8.Born In The U.S.A. - Bruce Springsteen (OMG this was the absolute) 9.Jungle Love - The Time 10.Crazy For You - Madonna (didn't care for it) 11.Just A Gigilo - David Lee Roth 12.Sea Of Love - Honeydrippers 13.Into The Groove - Madonna 14.You Are My Lady - Freddie Jackson 15.The Bird - The Time 16.Relax - Fr...

Sheep Sheep people are known for their elegance and creativity. They also think too much. Catch them on the wrong day and they're a downright downer. If you were born in 1931, 1943, 1955, 1967, 1979, 1991, or 2003, you're a Sheep.--> this is totally me.

My 5 reasons for being alive, I am mixing my scrapbooking sites right now. This is a challenge from Scrapbookchalet for the all about me challenge on 5 reasons for being alive, and it fits into the book of me challenge at scrapjazz and it is a scraplift of a Christina Padilla layout. How is that for mixing and crossing things up. Hope you can read it, if not let me know and I will post the journalling. Thank you all for the outpouring of hugs and well wishes, I felt them deep within my heart and feel much better. Thank you all.

My life is consumed with darkness. I no longer see light in it. My faith has wavered and I don't know how to get it back. I dread getting up in the morning, I dread going to work, I dread leaving work, and I dread going home. I dread going to sleep at night. I am on medication for anxiety attacks that does not completely keep them at bay, I am on neuropathic pain prevention medication that has helped some but leaves me in a very drugged state and I still feel pain. I still am in pain 24 hours a day every single day I live. It never abates it never goes away, it is always there in varying degrees of incapacitation. The degenerative injuries are starting to make themselves known now. Since my back is bad, and my hip is worse all the time I walk "improperly" and therefore my knee is shot. I was in physio and acupuncture for it for months in 2005 and 2006 trying to find some relief. My neck and shoulder muscles are so injured and weak that they can no longer support my...

I had fun on the weekend scrapping with my daughter, and son at times. An inspirational LO for a friend, the fall one is for a contest at Scrapbookchalet for the Survivor contest following a sketch from pencillines. Loved doing it, and stretching my creativity, the next one is the one of getting out from behind the camera and being in front of it for once, and then an anniversary card for my DH. 19 years on the 23 of this month. I am enjoying scrapping again and that is good.

I am Canadian, Valentines Day is very significant to me, I love Chocolate and I miss my dog. Found this on Leslie's blog...and I think Jes has one too. Go to blessthischick and get one for yourself...it's too cute!

I started scrapping yesterday morning with daughter and finished tonight around five. I got a few items done that I had committed myself to do, had fun with daughter and got my entry done for the Survivor contest at scrapbookchalet.com. This is exicting for me. I had been feeling so overextended. Somehow I had committed to doing to many items that all needed done before the end of this month. I just felt overextended. Now tonight after having finished some of those items I feel better. And I got to spend some quality time with daughter.

I am handing out gold stars today. to Karen for sending my kids special things more than once for Lori for letting my cry on her shoulder and not laughing at me to Cheyenne for always commenting on my blog (Car fans are the greatest) to Paula for helping me in so many ways (and with me not even knowing how to add her to my blog list so sorry) for Christy for sending my kids some clothes thank you so much for the "stranger" in the night last night that cleared our sidewalks after the massive blizzard and drifting we had this week (I tried last night and had to stop after two shovels due to pain) to the employee at the co-op that carried out to my vehicle the box of clothes that Christy sent saving my back from even more pain this morning for the kids for actually letting me sleep till seven every day this week Ashley for making my son a door hanger that he lords over Alexis every day my beautiful little girl in grade one that is now reading chapter books Just some gold stars...

This is a long convoluted story. I needed new tires on my sidekick prior to winter hitting. DH did the price checking and came up with the fact that we could get good winter Michelins at Costco for a good price. So in November he takes the sidekick there on a Sunday Morning to get them installed. 4 brand new tires are installed and he drives it home. About 5 miles. Sidekick is parked inside the garage. Bitterly cold weekend, and then on Monday forecast for more snow and even colder. I had been driving the Grand Caravan but wanted the 4x4 to be safer. Monday morning I go out to start my sidekick (affectionately known as Puff) and the front tire is totally utterly flat. Not an ounce of air in it. Now I should not say air I should say nitrogen, cause that is what they fill new tires with now, NItrogen. Supposedly is better for the tires and holds better. So I am driving the Caravan all week long (hubby is out of town) in miserable cold and bad snowy icy roads. A bad weather w...

Well the weatherman was NOT wrong for once, we got a blizzard. Snow and high winds causing high windchills. Went from around 0 yesterday to a -26 windchill today. brrrr. Lots of blowing snow and drifting. Driving is not pretty. And you still get the idiots that won't turn their lights one. Get a life, when visibility is bad you need them on. My little Sidekick 4x4 came in handy today battling some of the drifts. However being a small one with these winds it tosses me around. I am glad I filled up with gas yesterday, the extra weight really helps. While I was at the gas station an older man was filling up at the pump on the opposite side of the one I was using. He could have been Grizzly Adams. The beard, the touque pulled down, the ram-shackle pickup truck. He is making conversation and tells me. "Them theres a northerner blowing in. A young filly like you should be hunkered down in front of a fireplace." I could not agree with him more. Made me smile, it totally did. The...

I actually made a point of sitting down last night and scrapping. Was not easy with two little kids around but I did it. I had a stack of Rob and Bob studio paper that I bought on sale and I forced myself to use it. Sometimes why do I buy what I do.

I don't feel much like talking today. Here are some of the pictures taken New Years Eve. WE had some wine with supper. I casually mentioned that it would be a good wine to sip on while mingling at a party, but not something I would like to drink a lot of all at once. So the evening goes on, I get the kids to bed. And then go to look for the wine, it isn't in the fridge, it isn't in the snowbank getting cold, so I wander downstairs to ask DH where he put it. He had drank it all. I didn't think you wanted any he said, and his bottle of JD was half gone too. Not to amusing to me. Drinking is a huge issue for me in regards to him. SO he opens my bottle of saskatoon, sparkly alchohol-FREE wine and that is what I had for my new years toast all by myself. I have no idea why no pics of son were taken. and Notice the one with daughter sound asleep long before midnight, with the tooth fairy pillow waiting for a visit on her stool. Anyway happy 2007, may it be a year f...

My little guy turned three in July. I know he is my last and I am having a hard time with him growing up on me. Sometimes when I hold my breath and look at him just right I can still see baby in him. It does not happen often buy occasionally I do see it. Then in the blink of an eye that myth is dispelled and he is totally all boy. Totally all boy. From his stomp stomp stomp to his crash the cars to his jumping himself silly. What a kid. In the bathtub last night he is gathering his bath toys back up and we had quite the conversation. What one next Mom, so I say the orange fish. He picks up the orange his and demonstrates that they swim in the water. What one next mom ... the blue rocket. So he picks up the blue rocket and does the rrrr sound for a motor and flys it in the air up to the moon, what one next mom, the yellow sun, so the yellow sun gets picked up and he says not only is the sun hot but it is a yellow circle too Mom. My eyes just get wider and wider. Am I so busy with life t...

Just a thought. Everything is electronic or digital or computer now. Or at least it seems that way. Are you shocked when a store only accepts cash, or a few stores around here now are saying they will only take electronic payments. It all seems crazy to me. During the summer a friend from Montreal came to visit. She had a time with counting change, even though she is Canadian due to the language barrier. Later on a friend from Australia came. She had trouble with change due to the sizes and colors of it. She was horrified that we can alter our money here. We have the penny presses that alter an American penny with a loony of our money and put a place name on them. Apparently in Australia it is illegal to alter money. They also have plastic money. It lasts way longer. Apparently Australians swim with their wallets more than us so the plastic money is safer. It would be good here for the washing machine cycle. Back to the penny presses. Even though we are Canadian the machines are obviou...

I entered a contest over at scrapbookchalet.com for a color challenge for December. You needed to use blue, brown, and pink. Well I won the challenge. Funny part is: I was the only one entered so not much competion. Talk about ironic. I did the LO and framed it and gave it to my hubby from the kids for Christmas, so it was really worth doing. I have a difficult time scrapping masculine things. I just do. Girly is easy for me but masculine and little boyish I find hard. I never ever had a father and no male figure in my life. It is important to me that my kids have a relationship with their Dad and that they have each other. It is very important to me.

Hope you all had a good Christmas and a good New Year. WOAH that has yet to happen doesn't it. New Year goes for a full 365 days, there are 364 left to go. 2007 not 2006 on checks. Another birthday, another day another dollar. HA HA. This year coming up will see some major milestones for us: I turn the big 40, I feel like my life has gone by and I have not been there. DH turns the big 50. Guess that is worse than the 40. Daughter will turn 7 and son will turn 4. How is that possible? My Mom is steadily having her alzehimers get worse and worse. It is to the point I do not feel safe leaving the kids with her. And she is the only backup I have. Myles mom will hit 88 this year. I noticed a significant aging between October and when I saw her at Christmas. I am still scrapping and want a scrap space of my own. I want to lose weight even more. I want to go back to aquasize. I want an occasional date with my DH. I want him to quit drinking and I told him that on New Years. I w...