Last Scrapper Standing #1


I entered a contest for last scrapper standing here is my entry.

From the outside looking in we are the perfect family. Mom Dad daughter and son. A perfect family. But from the outside looking in you do not see what goes on behind closed doors. You do not see the physical pain endured on a daily basis by Mom and Dad. You do not see the frustration expressed when Mom is tired from pain and working and being a single parent. You do not see the tears and sadness when Daddy leaves every Monday for a week away at work. You do not see the loneliness. You do not see the sleepless nights the daughter suffers. You do not see the terrible two temper tantrums by the son. You do not see the Dad drinking way too much. You do not see the daughter struggling with issues of separation anxiety and growing up. You do not see the son struggling to gain weight and battle allergies. You do not see Mom struggling with depression. You do not see the anger that consumes Dad from having too much to do. You do not see all that needs to be done. You do not see the pain the anger the frustration the shouting the yelling the fighting. No from the outside looking in you see none of that. The outside looking in can be very deceiving.

I found this a difficult one to do. But it is done. Now wish me luck on not getting cut.

Comments

Cheyenne said…
That is absolutely one of the best pieces of literature I have read in a long time. As a matter of fact, it gave me goosebumps. Excellent! You can tell it is written from the heart, and those are the winners.
3:15 PM
Broken Beth said…
Mines up too
Nervous
I wonder when we know if we get CUTdru
11:42 PM
Jes said…
this is awesome oscar. very personal, very real, and i'm sure healing in a way, to get it out.... *hug*
3:10 PM
Lori Petticrew said…
the journalling is fantastic and from the heart....good luick chick! this is lovely
3:11 PM
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