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Took my mom shopping for clothes today. It was my present to her. Bought. A few things for myself too. Some sweaters dress pants and a pair of size 16 denim jeans. Woohoo I am so impressed I am that far down. Then dh and I took the kids sledding. It is supposed to get cold again Monday.

26th of December is Boxing day in Canada. That means lots of sales at stores. Similiar to black Friday in the states. I am not being an idiot and hitting the stores with two kids.

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Monday DD got her report card. SHe told me she had something to tell me, she got a C in gym. She got A's in everything else. When I opened the report card to sign it, there was an Honors Certificate in it. So proud of her. At parent teachers today her C is because she just doesn't try hard. Not so much her asthma, she just doesn't work hard or participate hard. Last night was Brownie Badge night. She tried for 13 badges and passed all 13. I guess she broke a troop record. She will also get one more key, and a entertainment badge. Tuesday night was my last photography class. It was all about studio lighting this week, I learned tonnes. Sorry the class is over. Wednesday night was the kindergarten board meeting. We are doing the bake sale next week at the kids program. Thursday was my work's open house for invited clients. A huge deal to keep business and get new projects. Not my cup of tea as socialization bothers me, but it went by fast. Today is kind of ...

I know there are two readers of my blog that will know just how much the following two pictures mean to me. I have asked three different people that I know personally that go to the races to get me a Tony coat. And they were always sold out when the went. Then at an auto swapmeet this fall DH found this one for me. It is a little big on me, but I really do not care. The only unfortunate thing about it, is that it is Tony's last year of the car and sponsor, probably why we got it for the price we did. LOL. I love it, and have been wearing it all I can. It means so much to me.

I received a phone call from Australia last night. I was able to talk to Paula (Poncho). It was great to hear her voice, her accent, her inflections, and then the actual Australian lingo. I really enjoyed speaking with her. We talked about our countries, and our interests a wonderful time, that really made my day. Shortly after that I received a call from my friend G. We have been friends for many many years. He has had heart issues from a young age, and his Dad died very young from heart issues. He has recently had three stints put in, and is feeling much better. That is great to hear.

I am having one of those days (weeks) where I feel so alone and isolated. I wonder why I do not have friends. I wonder why people do not like me once they meet me. I wonder why people do not value me. I wonder what is wrong with me. I wonder why. I really wonder why. I try to be a friend, I am non-judgemental, I allow others their own opinions, I offer advice, and support, I am there is someone wants a shoulder to cry on. Someone tells me something in confidence it stays in confidence. So I wonder why? I am the one that picks up the phone and calls, I am the one that reaches out. So I wonder why? What is it about me that is non-valued by other? What is it about me that makes me less than others? What is it about me? I wonder why? I try to be part of the group, but it seems I am on the outside looking in. So I wonder why? And then there is that part of me that thinks why does it matter? I am not even sure I can define why it matters, I just know that to my heart and m...

1) Mom I have something to tell you (don't know why he says it he just always does) 2) Mom you're the best. 3) Mom, I love you. 4) Mom I had the bestest day. 5) That was so much fun. It makes me feel so good to hear those things. Things that I could do without hearing: 1) Mom, did you hear that? It was a fart. followed by hysterical giggles 2) Mom, I don't like you. (Generally followed by an I love you) 3) Mom Mom Mom (Generally never followed by anything) 4) Mom, where is _____________________ (fill in the blank) 5) I not going to do it, and you can make me. (This is actually kind of funny) Weird things I hear: 1) snoggy day - kind low cloud cover, foggy misty etc. 2) shrinkles - after bath time what happens to your skin 3) icing on the van - this is frost as it is being scraped 4) I want that (said after every single commercial) 5) Mom was that golf (this kid loves golf)

I have to say this. 14 is a good number, afterall I was born on the 14th. LOL It will be hard to pick out a red car amongst all the other red cars on the track. It will be hard to remember to say office depot rather than home depot. Tony is my man. I wish him the most luck to go with his talent.

Yesterdays list made me really start thinking about all that I have accomplished in my life. I have done a lot, to come from less than steallar beginnings (read poverty and the wrong side of the tracks), I have come so far and done so much. Some things that I still want to do are these: 1) dive with mantarays the big big big ones 2) tour Australia 3) go to the antarctic 4) see africa 5) New Zealand 6) Europe 7) Niagra Falls 8) the Maritimes 9) Hawaii 10) the great wall of China 11) Great Barrier Reef 12) Belize Most are travel related. I have accomplished so much in my own life that I am satisfied with that, now I want to travel.

In Bold! Well, let's see here. You are to "bold" the things that you have done. So let's see what I can "bold" shall we? 1. S tarted your own blog 2. Slept under the stars 3. Played in a band ....at school 4. Visited Hawaii 5. Watched a meteor shower 6. Given more than you can afford to charity 7. Been to Disneyland /world 8. Climbed a mountain 9. Held a praying mantis 10. Sang a solo 11. Bungee jumped ............ I will never do this one ! 12. Visited Paris 13. Watched a lightning storm at sea 14. Taught yourself an art from scratch 15. Adopted a child 16. Had food poisoning 17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty 18. Grown your own vegetables 19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France 20. Slept on an overnight train 21. Had a pillow fight 22. Hitch hiked 23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill 24. Built a snow fort 25. Held a lamb 26. Gone skinny dipping 27. Run a Marathon 28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice 29. Seen a total eclipse 30. Watched a sun...

-a skiff of snow on top of wet icy roads, - congrats to Clint Bowyer on the Bush championship - congrats to Carl Edwards for giving it everything he could in both series and still coming in second. He did it with grace, and professionalism, and passion. - Flu seems to have hit my house, DD and DH sick on the weekend - an unexpected call that a cancellation happened and I can get DS in today rather than in December to the behavior specialist - Tony looked so emotional yesterday in the pre-race interviews. I hope the change is good for him, the way that Toyota never was. I will support him as a driver no matter where he goes.

Ripped off from Leslie.... I just felt like doing this...... 1. Do you like blue cheese? GAG 2. Have you ever smoked? Cigaretts? NO Pot? Yes, Yes, long long ago 3. Do you own a gun? no 4. What flavor Kool Aid was your favorite? cherry 5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? yes 6. What do you think of hot dogs? gag 7. Favorite Christmas movie? The old old Rudolph one 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? water 9. Can you do push-ups? nope 10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? my cameo 11. Favorite hobby? cars 12. Do you have A.D.D.? Sometimes I think I do 13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? Procrastination 14. Middle name? none 15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? 1. Can't believe Kristen didn't put cars 2. What to do about Austin 3. Thinking about the fallout from the election 16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink. Pepsi zero, water, tea 17. Current worry? My son 18. Currently hate right now? temper tantrums 19. Favorite place t...

The bestest halloween in my memory. You could be outside with just plain hoodies on, and crocs. No winter coats, no winter boots, no snow, no mittens, It was wonderful.

My 5 year old DS is scared of halloween. He is a kid that really needs the routine, and the sameness in his life. Halloween just has so many changes going on, that he freaks. Last night at a Halloween Party, he had the most major meltdown. Try to explain to a room full of condescending parents why a five year old is acting like that. One time his being way small came in handy, some of them thought he was younger than 5 and were more understanding. There were no scary or frightening costumes, no weapons. It wasn't fair to my DD to make her leave because of him, it wasn't fair to him to make him stay. Some days I need more of me than there are. We ended up playing with balloons at the other end of the room, and hearing every five minutes, is it done yet, can I go home now. He didn't eat snack in the afternoon, he didn't eat supper before the party, he only drank the juice at the party, never touched the treats. Would not eat breakfast this morning. Today is go...

What do you get when you take a smart car and cross it with a vette? A SMORVETTE

We are sitting reading a book together. He wants a hug and says to me : Mommy will I ever get to go back to that place babies come from? I am what place? he says you know the place I am no I don't tell me about it he says The place where it is dark, the place where it is really warm, the place where it is noisy. I say no I don't know that place and then he says it is really wet and dark there mommy, but it felt so good. You know mommy the place babies come from. Is it possible? could he really remember the womb? It shocked me so much. I told him he wouldn't be able to go back to that place, and he was really sad. He did say he had felt really good there. Imagination or recall?

Now it actually could be better if: It was a ZR1 If Tony came with it and If it was mine.

Saturday I went to a 12 hour crop at my local scrapbook store. I really enjoyed getting out and doing some creative stuff. I snuck away to go to a girlfriends wedding. It was beautiful. She deserves so much happiness, and she just glowed. I wish her all the best in years to come. DD attended with me. It was her first wedding. SHe was awestruck by the beauty and romance of it all. Now should a 8 year old think about romance? Sunday was a nice quiet day. DD went to a friends house and played for the afternoon, DS and I videogamed together. Today is back at work, back to daycare, back to school.

- Canada had a federal election on Tuesday. A colassal waste of money and time. Our political system really needs revamped. We do not get a vote for a leader, we only get a vote for our local representative. And then whoever is the head of that party that gets the most representatives becomes our prime minister. And people can stay in office for as long as they are voted in. No 8 year rules here. So we need a reform done on our system. It does not work the way it currently is. - Tory blue, sweeps Alberta election after election after election. Just cause. However, an NDP candidate managed to unseat an 11 year veteran Tory MP in Edmonton. IT CAN BE DONE. I love it. Arragance does not become Rahim Jaffer. He will not conceed defeat. - Things kids say. Talking at the pediatricians yesterday, about all that is wrong with DS. He pipes up, "I am cold because Mommy doesn't dress me warm enough." I felt about two inches tall. Then I laughed. Today he is wearin...

Keep in mind in Canada you do not just "have" a pediatrician for your kids. They have to be sick enough to be referred to one. This particular one Dr. M, has seen DS before for weight loss and hearing issues and did his circumcisn too. So after answering two hours worth of questions, and questionairres, and explaining things, I have another referral to the dietician, one to an allergist, and one to a behavior specialist. And a followup appointment in a month. DS has grown one inch since February. he is now 43 inches, he would be totally legal at Disney now. He is 35 pounds. Has asthma. Nothing really I didn't know before. Dr. M disagrees with Dr. E that he is not iron deficient. That I should finish the bottle of iron supplements and not give him any more. He does need supplemenation of vitamin D though. I asked and asked again that somehow all these individual things be pulled together so that all are treated and not everything treated individually. I have a r...

I spent the weekend home in bed sick. I went home friday and stayed in bed all weekend. For Thanksgiving I shipped my DH , Mom, and the two kids out to the farm to share Thanksgiving with my MIL. I still have a bad cough today and runny nose. I hate being sick.

DD pet hampster was found dead this morning in his cage. She is very sad and very upset. We got Henrie at the beginning of September 2007. He was a very curious little hampster, often escaping his cage. He could be handled and petted and played with, he seldom bit, and was her friend.

My mind needs a break from all that is going on: Lori from down in LA tagged me way back when: http://lafruitloop.blogspot.com/ Although she did call me the OLD grouch. Bad Lori. I enjoy reading the following blogs: Jenny in New Zealand, I love seeing her scenic shots and hearing of other countries. http://engel4nz.blogspot.com/ Cheyenne in PA - a racing bug I met on line, hopefully one day to meet in real life http://shaiyenasblog.blogspot.com/ Leslie in Italy - I so want to go visit her, I would run away in a minute and do it. http://lesliestamps.blogspot.com/ And Paula in AUstralia. I love seeing her blog from another countries perspective.

DD defied me yesterday morning, I gave her a punishment. No TV or DVD until Friday. I thought the evening would be difficult but it actually went very well. She surprised me. Her second Brownie meeting is tonight, she is wanting to learn more about badges, and is figuring out how to get lots. LOL. Ambitious little thing. I told her if she learned things and had fun, I didn't mind her getting lots, but if she did them for the sake of getting lots, that that was wrong.

Yesterday started off with an appointment with the local child phyciatrist. DS had issues separating from me, then was a wonderful little boy that he can be. Engaging, happy, structured, and intelligent. Ultimately Dr. L told me this: No signs of autism, or any other diagnosable issues that would require aids, help, etc. She said this was a good and bad thing. As it means that although there is nothing wrong that really needs an aid, that because he does have transition issues it will be very hard to get him to adjust to changes. She thought he was an adorable, smart, little guy. She did say that he did have a very competitive streak in him. If she came close to winning we would get very tense and stressed. She isn't used to seeing a child that young with that intense of a competitive streak. She talked to him about it. Empasising that it is the fun nature of playing that is more important than the win. That the time to enjoy is the game itself and not the end result. Over...

September has been quite a month for him. He quits going to the daycare he has attended for years. Says goodbye to his friends and favorite teacher T. Starts Kindergarten at school. Get to go on the school bus, (huge for him), goes with his big sister (huge for him). He acts out at Kindergarten the first two days. A couple refusals to do what he is supposed to do. One time out. A couple of temper tantrums. His teacher calls me on the Friday afternoon and tells me I need to keep him home for another year and let him mature, or to keep him at home until after his appointment tomorrow. She later calls me sunday night and says if I do decide to send him back, she will do her best. Well I had already changed plans. I had to fire the girl I had hired to watch him part time, I had to cancel after school care. I got him back into daycare. Into the private kindergarten that is run through daycare. This was a huge crush to his self confidence and abilities. Not to be able to go with ...

DD had a great time at brownies last night, she is in the kelpies. She is a little disappointed in not being a fairy. arrrggg, kids. SHe liked it, is not the biggest kid even though she is the oldest. So that is good. Found out about some totally inappropriate behavior of DS at K today. Makes me sick to my stomach. I really am overwhelmed, I do not know how much more I can bear. DH had bought tickets to Alice Cooper and the concert is tonight, I just plain do not want to go. Tomorrow is my work golf event and BBQ, I do not want to do that either, but feel I must. Tomorrow is also kids gymnastics. Overwhelmed, I really really just want the world to all go away. I keep thinking of the Eagles song You are Not Alone, but man I do feel it. I really do.

DD is so excited that Brownies starts tonight. So excited. SHe got all her uniform together last night, and read the book AGAIN. I asked her what she was excited the most about and she said that there would be no boys. LOL 7 Random things about me: 1) I cannot stand the sight or taste of jello, looking at it gives me the jeebies 2) I just do not get sarcasm, goes right over my head. 3) I probably watch too much TV 4) I am thinking about sky diving and I am terrified of falling at the best of times 5) I enjoy photography, but suck at it 6) I am an introvert not an extrovert 7) I love popcorn

I get to daycare last night to pick DS up. The manager pulls me aside, I need to talk to you. So we go in the office. Apparently my little boy, in the middle of circle time raised his hand and said he needed to say something. So he proceeds to tell the kindergarten teacher, the other nine students that his Daddy had died, and that there were only three in his family. OMG. Is that a cry out that Daddy has worked far too much this summer. We are used to him being away weekly, but he has worked all but three weekends since June I think. We just have not seen him. It is taking a much bigger toll on DS than I had realized. I asked him later why he said that? He says it was easier than telling the truth. Easier than what truth? That Daddy isn't here. I cried for him. He is struggling so hard. I called DH and told him. His response was that he had been asked to work this weekend too. AAARRRGGGGG. I asked him to say sorry to the teacher this morning for lieing. He said h...

My wonderful MIL turned 89 on the 14th and DH turned 51 on the 15th. We went out to the farm and spent the day with Lilly. She is a fantastic lady. (Excuse the focus on the first one, my Mom didn't let the camera focus first).

Or should I say where is Maple and Whipping Cream? I am awoken early in the morning, with the crys of Mommy, Mommy, come see. And this is what I found. Can you find the bunnies amongst the Webkinz?

Make for some interesting sex ed opportunities. They really do. So my girl bunny needs to get fixed. Apparently girl bunnies are prone to uterine cancer so she will have the full hysterectomy. Whipping Cream is the boy at 800 grams Maple the girl is at 710. Both are in great shape the vet says. Lots of good quality hay. ANyway my 8 year old has been told that if they were one of each we would have to get one fixed. Explanations were given using correct terminology and everything. Great opportunity to explain things. Anyway she asks me what girl parts are fixed to prevent babies, I tell her. She then asks me what boy parts. I tell her the testicles. She thinks about it and then says that is where the fertilizer is. I killed myself laughing, fertilizer . I also found out yesterday how the kids picked the names at camp for the bunnys. The mothers name was Waffles. There were five babies. What do you put on waffles? Well apparently you put on waffles "Blackberry" ...

DS had his annual doctors appointment on Friday. I told my doctor about the issue with kindergarten and this is what I found out. Kids in Alberta cannot be kicked out of kindergarten. It is the schools job to provide adequate assistance to them to make them succeed. They can after a trial period of not less than 6 weeks, say that they cannot have the child in their program, but they have to find an alternative program for the child. They just cannot say "he can't come again." He is currently at the 30th percentile for weight and just under 50th for height. We went for x-rays on sinuses and adnoids, to the lab for blood work, and are doing a sleep thing on the 3rd. And we are increasing his asthma meds. Gymnastics was on Saturday. DD hurt her chest doing something, probably pulled a muscles on her sternum. DS did not want to leave at all. Yesterday we went to the farm for mil 89th birthday. A gorgeous day. The kids could ride bikes, drive the jeep, and just run and ...

The principal of the elementary school calls me. I spend 3/4 hour on phone with her. She is apologizing that the K teacher asked DS to leave after two days. She is saying that he just wasn't given a fair chance. What person can totally transition within two days? She can now offer some things. a temporary education assistant to be assigned to DS while in kindergarten until his doctors appointment at the end of the month a entry position in pre - k, but the one at the school is full, but there is an opening at one across the city again she apologizes saying the K teacher should not have asked him to leave I tell her the upheaval it caused, I had to terminate my part time care, the school bus, that DS was heartbroken he could not go to school, that DD was upset about it as well, She then tells me that I am much nicer than she would have thought given the circumstances. arrrrgggggggg Apparently she looked into it because when I went to the office Monday to withdraw DS, the recep...

Good and tired Being tired from doing something feels a whole lot better than being tired of doing nothing. If you're going to be tired at the end of each day, then make it really count for something. If you're weary, perhaps it's not because you're doing too much. Perhaps it's because you're not at all invested in what you're doing. A difficult challenge that's aligned with your purpose will generate far more energy in you than an easy task that has no real meaning for you. You can accomplish much more when what you're accomplishing is what you care about. When your body is tired, a good night's sleep will revive you. When your spirit is weary, you'll need something more. You have a unique voice and a unique purpose that are longing to be expressed. Start living that expression and you'll find an endless source of energy flowing through your life. Get yourself good and tired with focused, disciplined work on a purpose that connects with ...

I had asked DS why he didn't like circle time at K, he told me it was because HE wasn't doing anything. "Mom, it is boring, I don't get to do anything". I explained to him that he was doing something if he was learning and listening. I am not sure if he understood that. He did yesterday's worksheet with the other kids in the ECS room, and then asked for more stuff. So he did all the worksheets they had done last week. He is all caught up. He did sit and participate in circle. I asked him last night what he did in ECS (we are trying not to call it daycare), he says I did all my homework, I learned about my body. Great explanation. He did have trouble with the transition from outside to inside. He did have a tantrum, and did flail around. It was dealt with. He said he wouldn't do anything, and within two minutes he was playing. T at the daycare centre is very angry that he was not given more than a two day chance. That the K teacher did not call ...

My heart goes out to my little one. He trys so hard in this world, and I want what is best for him. When his kindergarten teacher called me Friday she said my option was to keep him at home until his Doctors appointment at the end of September or to hold him back from kindergarten completely for another year. DH called her as well and she explained another option of PAC. (don't know what the letters stand for). She told DH she would call on the weekend to explain things more to me. She called last night at 9:15. She explained these options to me. One was to put him on a waiting list for pre-k. There he would learn a little literacy and have a little less structure in his day. He could also go for the PAC evaluation. Which is a six week evaluation where I go with him each day and he gets evaluated. I could keep him home with me for another year. and then she says or if you do send him back on Monday I will do my best to work with him. ?????WTH. I asked details of his day....

and it wasn't a good one. DS kindergarten teacher called me. Told me that DS is not ready for kindergarten, that I should keep him at home for another year. He is shutting down, and not responding in class, he is spinning, and banging his head. He refused to leave the play ground this morning. A grade four teacher had to bring him in. He had to be removed from the class today. He had tantrums. Just a long list of reasons. I do not know what to do. He hated daycare, hated it, I would have to carry him in kicking and screaming he hated it so much. With kindergarten he had the chance of going to school, riding the school bus, and I thought his situation would improve greatly. I was wrong. So what do I do now? I work full time, my so called DH is not around to help me. What the heck do I do? Quit my job, find other care? I just do not know, and I have to have everything in place by Monday. aaaarrrrggggggg

On the first we picked up some new babies: This is Whipping Cream, she will be DD pet, born at the end of July. This is Maple, my bunny. She is so sweet. That little black eye and ear just stole my heart. She is the tiniest out of the litter. DD was at a summer camp that had farm animals at a museum. The Momma bunny had five babies, and the kids handled them constantly. They named them Carmel, Cinamon, Blackberry, Whipping Cream, and Maple. Very tame and so sweet. I agreed to take one. Then we got the call that Mommy bunny had had six more babies, I decided that we would take two. I have an appointemnt with the vet to ensure that they are the same sex, cause I don't want a bunch of babies.

Yesterday we had an hour orientation and then today it was off on the school bus and into kindergarten. I gave him a huge hug and told him he was no longer a baby but my big boy. He was so excited and happy to be going. His big sister was so helpful and protective of him, she even sat with him on the school bus. I cannot wait till tonight to find out how he did all day. And for those of you asking, yes our mornings and nights are cool now. It got down to 2 degrees celcius last night, you could see your breathe this morning. Kids need the hoodies in the morning, and then not in the afternoon.