Oscarisms

Monday morning and I am alive. I got 8 top teeth pulled on Thursday Afternoon. Took Friday off of work. Myles had the kids most of Saturday. Yesterday felt very weak. Today I feel very weak, almost disoriented weak. I have a normal doctors appointment tomorrow and I will ask my doctor about it then. I am still bleeding and probably am anemic due to blood loss. The pain is not all that great, I live with worse every single day. Just the naggie ness of it gives me something new to bitch about. AND I hate the taste and sight of blood. I really do. Alexis did wonderfully at her play on Friday. A travelling theatre went into the school on Monday and had a play to present to everyone by Friday. Great learning experience for the kids and enjoyed. An in-line skating week is taking place this week, please let there be no broken bones this week. Please. I did Zero scrapping, so sorry girls I am still not done my favorite season. argggg Something got into our back yard Saturday night. Clim...

I get half of my top teeth pulled tomorrow. That isn't what is really scaring me though. It is the blood and gore that goes with it that is terrifing me. The pain, the aftermath, and the dentist. arggggggggg. Get me through this week please.

I just do not understand the concept of lease versus buy. Why is it so much cheaper to lease than it is to buy. You get zero percent interest on a lease, and over 8 on a buy. Plus the dealership ends up with the car back. My sublime green daytona charger I want is $46,000.00 Canadian plus 6% GST. No matter how many times I told the salesman I was looking at buying as an investment versus leasing and turning back in, all he would do is tell me the pitfalls of buying. I just do not get it. And would someone please please please take my headache away.

This is one of those times that I know if I go and look I will buy so I have not gone and looked up close. Sitting on the lot at Southside Dodge is this car. It is a sublime green Dodge Charger Daytona with a black stipe package on it. SUpposedly it is one of 150 in Canada. Well I want, but I am not going to look. WIth the family I NEED a four door car right? Really I do. We need something cool, for me cause I am NOT a mini-van queen. I want I want I want.

Please someone make my headache and TMJ go away. We might hit double digits in temperature today. Snow is melting quickly. Please no flooding this year No walk this morning, just did not feel up to it. Why does DS HATE new clothing. Why does DD grow so fast that she needs new clothing? WOW. in size 10 now. Please Mum is expanding soon. Terrified of getting my teeth pulled Thursday. DD in a play on Friday with the evergreen theatre. Get to go to a scrapbook class for a bo-bunny grandparent brag book tomorrow night. Took the kids to the waterpark yesterday. Hard to focus, hard to concentrate, and I hurt, bad. What is up with Micheal Waltrip, if I was NAPA I would be furious. Why couldn't Tony pull off the win yesterday. My friend DTC was so happy Clint won Busch. Still leading in my virtual race pool. Have to change drivers after the 11th race, not sure who to go with.

My prework on my two bottom right crowns done yesterday. Took an hour longer than my dentist estimated, so I missed all but 5 minutes of my massage appointment that I really needed. Ended up missing the whole day of work. arggggg My headache, neck and TMJ are really suffering today. Next thursday I go in and get half of my top teeth pulled. the following thursday I go in and get my two crowns placed. The next week I go in for the prework on my two crowns on my bottom left. and two weeks after that they get placed. and then sometime in June I get the rest of my top teeth pulled and my dentures put in. can I say OMG

20 years ago today I miscarried a baby. I can imagine myself with a 20 year old running around. Maybe even a grandma, that is a rough thought. For years when I could not conceive I wondered if I was being punished for miscarrying my first. I was young, got pregnant in college, and was sick all the time. I had morning sickness 24 hours a day every single day, I lost a lot of weight. I was alone and I was scared. I went to bed one night feeling very ill, I woke up two days later in the hospital. I had hemarraged and been uncousious, and almost died. I miscarried in my fifth month. When I missed college some friends tried to reach me and couldn't so called my ex and he had the landlord let him in. It saved my life. I have always felt so guilty that I was just that little bit relieved that it had happened. I was so young, and on my own, and did not want a child raised the way that I had been raised. Feelings just all over the place. It hit me like a ton of bricks again w...

how does the world foster such hatred that you can kill 30 some people at one time. how can two murders be committed two hours prior to the mass killing and not have a lockdown going on the kids that were killed in it are the lucky ones, the ones that are injured and have to live with it the rest of their lives are the ones that need the help. Now and in the future. My prayers go out to all of the families and students at this time. Being the pessimist that I am, I am wondering how soon the copycats will occur. After Columbine it is was one week when a student did it in Taber Alberta killing one student and injuring another. Yes it does strike close to home, yes it can happen anywhere, and yes it does happen.

**thoughts to Rhonda she had an eventful weekend **way to go bets on your business plan **I am awash in a rainbow of colors **waterpark yesterday with DS, his confidence in the water is improving so well **first unparented swim lesson on saturday for DS, he did wonderfully **my babies are growing up **Tony Steward spin out and save that car awesome **Jeff Burton WOOHOOO **Mark Martin woo hoo **New stove installed on the weekend, now I have seven burners not just one **old stove dumped at dump, what a line up **trip to Costco with DH, that was fun **Monday mornings suck totally, kids getting into a routine again, back to school, back to daycare, back to work. ewwwwww

The losses are so sad:

I wonder..... 1) wonder how LOST will be tonight 2) how my friend Ruthann is doing stuck in an airport on her way to a funeral 3) wonder when spring ever come 4) wonder when will the temper tantrums stop 5) wonder if I will ever gain patience 6) wonder why won't Disney let me book a package in 2008 7) where should we go on our road trip this summer North , South, East, West? 8) wonder how is Lori doing in her new job? 9) wonder how is Lesfitz doing with her hubby getting ready to go and her move? 10) wonder if people dislike that I have good news when they don't? 11) wonder why I want to shout things from the rooftops when I know I can't 12) wonder when we will hit double digits in temperature 13) wonder how Alexis is doing in survivor camp at afterschool care 14) wonder how I am as a Mommy 15) wonder if my kids will grow up strong and honest and happy One of my business associates that I also know on a personal basis had his oldest daughter and son-in-law killed in a car a...

Yesterday most of the snow from the last 8 days had melted and we were left with most things brown. This morning however we woke up to more snow and it is still snowing. I know we need the moisture, but come on now, it is after Easter. Speaking of which the Easter bunny had to hide eggs in side the house due to snow outside. And the roads are slippery. very very slippery.

This weekend sees the one year anniversary of the death of my daughters friend Travis. His Mom and his big sister could really use your thoughts and prayers this weekend. It is also Easter Weekend which is making it even harder for them.

The anxiety is starting to set in. I am in panic mode. I went and saw the denturist this morning to talk about the plan for getting dentures. Yup, thats me, 40 and a mouthful of rotten teeth. It embarrasses me so much. No matter how well I care for them they just disintegrate. So the time has come for dentures. It sounds so little old ladyish. I guess that is me. I am doing some major dental stuff this month. Two crowns on the bottom right on the 19th, then extraction of half my uppers on the 26th then placement of the crowns on the 3rd of May. Then the crowns and fillings on the left side the following Thursday and two weeks later the placement of the crown. Then in about mid June I can go and get my mould done for the upper dentures then when they are ready, I go in and get my front teeth pulled and the dentures will be ready to go right in. Talk about one terrified Oscar. I have anxiety issues with dentists. I have anxiety issues with blood. I have anxiety issues wit...

It started snowing April Fool's Day and is still going strong.

On Friday March 30 my two little ones received their passports under separte cover by themselves. So it took from February 7 till March 30 to get them. Me and hubby still do not have ours. The race yesterday. I don't think I have ever wished that the two cars battling for the lead would wreck as much as I was hoping yesterday, I wanted it so bad. argggg